new calendar

somehow the days have been passing,
and the calendar is ready to be turned.
it all seems like the blink of an eye.
2006 seems like it should be further away,
i should be older and more responsible
wiser, have a future planned out.
and yet it's here, and some things are
not quite what i had planned.
most of all, there is a boy who i love
and who loves me back.
an unfinished thesis.
good grades, if the end of the semester
works out all right.
the end of graduate school beckons
an unknown destination too...
and maybe a ring.
things which i am not prepared for,
but that will happen anyway...
that is how the future comes,
whether we want it to or not,
ready or not.
so i resolve (while not making a resolution)
to stop wasting days on worries
and let things come as they may
let life wash over me like a wave
and as the fresh air fills my lungs
to breathe, to live, and love.